Renewal

I’m on Day #17 of headache. I have officially downgraded this migraine-thingee to headache because I haven’t vomited since Friday. That being said, I don’t have an appetite yet and became nauseous again today. I’m supposed to get Botox injections in the base of my skull, but I am trying holistic therapies first. I have received 2 massages, which are cheaper than my deductible at the doctor’s office (and WAY more enjoyable), plus got me out of puking mode on Saturday.

Hubs leaves for Panama tomorrow, and I will spend five days concentrating on healing and renewal while he’s gone. I will start with a 2-day juice fast because to be perfectly honest, I’ll be “eating” more than I have been for the past 3 weeks on this fast. I’ve done it several times before and it’s a liver, colon & gall bladder cleanse that my holistic doctor recommended. I’m hoping to kick some healing energy in gear. It’s all organic juice & water for 2 days, followed by a day of organic whole fruits and veggies & then eating clean for a few days after the cleanse and flushing with lots of water. Shouldn’t be a problem as we have a bumper crop of yummy tomatoes and cucumbers in our garden right now.

To aid the renewal, I’m thinking of new positive mantras for myself to get out of this negative slump I’m in. I haven’t nailed the mantra yet, so I’m just going with “I’m perfect just the way I am,” for now. It’s a start. I will be focusing on positive affirmations (aka whatever mantra(s) I decide to use) over the weekend as I go through closets and purge stuff we no longer need. We badly need to simplify, especially if we’ll be moving to Central America in a couple of years!

I’m also going to work on yoga and dance. I haven’t danced in so long, I think my body has forgotten how to move. I am not a dancer. I love to dance, but I am definitely NOT a dancer. I practice Middle Eastern style belly dance because it’s the only dance I’m coordinated enough to grasp the concept of. Well, I can salsa a little. (I’m part Cuban…I think our hips just inherently know what to do whenever music plays, or there is a rhythm of any sort. Where I have trouble is with my feet. I think I was born with two left ones.)

The good news is since I’m no longer in a calorie deficit, I have a wee bit of energy again and the pups are happy because I’m able to walk them without feeling like I’m going to pass out, so we’re going for more than just a quick jaunt. Poor babies still aren’t going for runs and Reno & I have another 5k to train for, though! (October, so we still have some time.)